I originally started this blog a few years ago to chronicle Noah's daily struggles with autism. It was a dark time in my life - a time when I felt that things would never get better. It was a time when I felt that all my hopes and dreams for my son and for our family had died. In my efforts to help Noah recover from autism, I began a journey that inadvertently led me to rediscover myself. I learned how to laugh again. How to dream again. How to live again. How to love again.

Autism Schmaustism. He's still our son.

This is a blog celebrating our family. Our kids. Our life.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Let's Give This Another Try

Wow. Let's see if I can do this again. This whole blogging thing.

It was really nice taking a month-long break from it. The truth is blogging doesn't really take up a lot of my time. It's all the stuff done after I blog that takes up my time.

Like, "Oooh! Let me check my email and see if anyone's left a comment!"

or "Oooh! Let's see what everyone's blogging about today!"

or "Oooh! I wonder what Ralph Macchio is up to these days. Let's Wikipedia him!"

And then that turns into "Hey, whatever happened to that new Karate Kid movie they were gonna make? The one with Will Smith's son. Or was it his daughter? Okay, it's gonna bug me if I don't find out. Let's google it!" And on and on and so it goes.

But another reason that I think I needed to take a rest was because I just didn't know what direction to take with my blog. It just felt so strange coming back from India and blogging about trivial things. Like driving an hour and a half to the nearest Target to get the new Limited Edition Orange Creme Hershey Kisses. (And let me just say that I did happen to go to Target and totally bypassed them thanks to Alicia Silverstone and her new recipe book that is totally changing my life. Score one for me!).

And I felt odd one minute posting about India and how it changed my life and then turning around and blogging about the 30 Day Shred and how it actually totally shredded my knee and I had to use a cane for a few days until I could walk properly again. (Did ya'll know that I was off and on a cane for a good part of my early 20's? The doctors said it was Lupus, but fortunately I haven't had a flareup in ages, so who knows). And I could've come on here and blogged about the fact that I had no idea there was a muscle in my behind underneath all that fat... but there is... and it sure made itself known when it wouldn't let me sit down on it for about two days thanks to that darn exercise video.

Jillian Michaels, you slay me.

But see? How can you blog about stuff like that when you just came back from an overseas trip that changed your life? When you just experienced poverty and orphans and when you've just seen God's face in the eyes of 84 children.

And, of course, then I started to get paranoid that people were actually sick and tired of hearing me talk about India. And then my delusions even got me to thinking what if some poor frat boy accidentally stumbled upon my blog and decided to invent a drinking game based on all the times I mention the word "India" in one blog post.

So, for the safety and college careers of frat boys everywhere, I decided to take a break.

But this last month has been a really good time for reflection. I'm not sure what direction this blog will take... I know it's gone through a ton of changes. First, it was all about Noah & Autism. Then it was about Nandi & Eli. Then it was about Eli's issues. Then Noah & Anoop & American Idol & The Clefhangers. Then it was Nandi's RAD... which just about drove me insane. Then it was India... and interspersed between all of that was my own rants & raves & ramblings & thoughts & observations & little diddies here and there that amused me.

And, who knows, it may just resume exactly how it was. It just, I don't know, seemed appropriate to take a bit of a break. To spend time with my family. To break my Wikipedia addiction. To regroup. To let some time pass. To have my nervous breakdown and time of self-reflection privately and not on the internet. Oh, and to catch up on all the episodes of Modern Family that I've missed on Hulu.

Why, oh why, are they airing it opposite of American Idol? Why??!!

So, anyway, this is me dipping my toe back into the blogging waters. I don't know if I'll blog again tomorrow or if it'll be next week or even a month from now.

But I think I'm ready to try.